Led Zeppelin - Stairway To Heaven

...and as we wind on down the road
our shadows taller than our souls
there walks a lady we all know
who shines white light and wants to show
how everything still turns to gold
and if you listen very hard
the tune will come to you at last
when all are one and one is all
to be a rock and not to roll....

A Short Post about David Beckham's Hair

I am sure many of you have also seen David Beckham and his new hairstyle while he was carrying the Olympic torch last week. At least I think, that was the first time he was showing off this new style.
Last Saturday I was out in Clapham, in the place I think I had seen at least 5, 6 David Beckham hair-styled boys. Exact same hair, a bit less good-looking face but the complete style even with the beard and moustache combo! I dont know when exactly they grew their hair first and cut the sides and keep the top like a rooster but It seems like we will keep seeing these lookalikes for a while.

Well, I took another look now and it is not too bad, is it? hehe :)

Until next time! x

Olympics

Finally today, I have bought a ticket for weightlifting games and we went to collect the tickets from Stratford. It was our first time in the Olympic Park therefore we went a bit over excited :) I am adding some photos of today while we were simply dorking around :)

Our very successful weightlifting and canoeing performances.

And of course we win the gold medals!

A tough fencing competition with jelly belly beans sticks.

And... There it goes! Yipee!

Birthday

Today is my birthday and this is my first birthday without Facebook support since 2007 :) So comparing to the last years, it has been quieter. Only a handful of people called and texted me and funny it is I kind of liked it. I feel more grown up. (well unfortunately I actually am!)

Let me have a quick look at my last year. If I compare my life now to last year, not many things have changed. I feel happier though, that is the most important thing but apparently it hasn't been a very productive year. I should work on that harder this year.

I am going to cut it short since I need to work now. But now I will blow the candle on my little bd cupcake and make a wish! :)

Until next time! xx

make a move!

It has been sooo long since the last time I wrote here. I have been busy with many things that I will sum up in a separate post but now the topic is moving!

My contract with the current flat is ending at the end of August and I want to move out of this flat. Within last 4 years this will be my 5th moving and 2 of them were international. I can describe moving as my idea of hell and the hottest boiling part of it is packing. Sigh!

I need to give away some of my clothes and get rid of some furniture ohh and the most important part need to find a flat to move in :) Highly probably I will say goodbye to Chiswick.

Oh.. Wish me luck!
B.

The Connells - '74-'75

it's not easy, nothing to say,
'cause it's already said.
it's never easy..

A Sunday about The Mothers' Day, Flowers, Breakfast, Burritos, Margaritas, Sun Shine, Shoes and Shadows

Today was a beautiful day with full of joy. I woke up with my mom's call who got my flowers for The Mother's Day. I love her to the bits and I am sure she knows it. Such a beautiful thing to be waken up by someone you love, even if it was through a phone call.

Then I had a long, lazy, late breakfast under the sun with a friend in lovely sunny Chiswick.

Then I met with the girls and as 5 girls, we went to a Mexican Restaurant at Southbank (yes! right after my long, late breakfast :) ) I really liked the food there and I am definitely going back to have some more delicious margaritas!

The main goal of our little crowd was not only having Mexican food though therefore right after we filled our stomaches, we jumped in a cab to go to the Design Museum to see Christian Louboutin exhibition. 

It was quite impressive and definitely something different than we usually do. We were not allowed to take photos but I didn't behave at all times. So you may see just two 'misbehaved of me' below. :)

The Entrance:

The Shadow Theatre: 

or simply just click this link to see the more info and somme better pictures. http://designmuseum.org/exhibitions/2012/christian-louboutin

The shoe show was not enough I suppose that is why London Bridge also posed to us while we were having our coffee break on the way back. Everything looks just better under the sun shine.

And last but not least, after a couple of spins in London and a failed attempt to have a pedicure we decided to watch the new Tim Burton's movie, "Dark Shadows". As expected it was absolutely brilliant! I like Johnny Depp, that is a fact but that was not only it, the whole movie was just great! I am now scared to give any spoilers so I will keep my mouth shut but there the trailer is..

I highly recommend you all just to go and see this movie but you would do it anyway if you are a Tim Burton fan like me.

So here it is, the end of sweet Sunday and I think it will be even sweeter to finish it with a song that I like a lot, a song was also a soundtrack of Dark Shadows.

Until next time..

x

Let it what?

I was on the tube tonight, while three ladies were talking to each other next to me. One of them was so upset because someone did some sh*t. I couldn't catch the whole story since they apparently started talking about it before they got on the same carrier with me.

Yes I know, I shouldn't have listened to them but I am glad that I did. And no I am not going to tell you the whole story because they did not continue talking about the upsetting topic.
Her friend who was a wise wise woman said to her "just let it go", "don't even think about it", "move on" because you cannot change anything.

These words kept echoing in my head for a while..

Let it go
Don't think about it
Move on

Then something just hit me! If I could do that how freaking easy would world be?!! I have realised that I have never ever ever ever done any of them in my entire life. I always over think, I never forget and I just get stuck with the same bloody upsetting topic and keep thinking about it over and over again.  I don't know if that is because of the culture that I was raised in or if that is a personal defect but I just do not know how to let it go! How much difficult do I make my own life by doing that? How crazy is that?

Okay, life can sometimes be hard if there are things that we cannot change and affect us badly as health issues etc. But apart from that actually it is in our hands by just letting the redundant thoughts  go!

Wow! Such a relief! Thank you stranger lady! You are like my personal Yoda even if I would never see you again, this is already more than enough!

Catch the Sunny Spells! If you can..

The weather has been dreadful for more than 2 weeks now and they forecast another rainy month. As a result of that I am learning to catch the sunny spells as much as I can. While we were sitting at the roof cafe of Tate Modern today I took this photo of St Paul. I caught the good weather and locked it in here. It is not mostly cloudy with sunny spells anymore. It is now sunny! Time stops in photographs, doesn't it?..

Art with a hint of technology

I am obsessed with drawing eyes with my new crayons these days. But I guess I bought not the best brand of crayons and the colours don't really belong to our planet so anything I draw looks like a bit one of those primary school art class pieces. My crayons are my bridge to water colouring and who knows, it might even lead to oil painting.

For now, instead of going and getting new crayons with more natural colours, I decided to use good old/new technology snapseed on iPad and "Grunge"d my drawings to make them more natural coloured. It doesn't make a huge difference but since it is the grunge style, it makes it look more real, with more real colours that you can see in nature. There you can see a new eye that I drew and grunged!

p.s. I still don't draw on the iPad. It is old fashion paper-crayon drawing which made its way to my iPad by getting photographed.

Gun Ortasi Melodramasi

Haftalardir yuzunu gostermeyen gunes, kucuk cocuguymusuz da sanki kaybolmamizdan korkan annemiz gibi bizi hic yalniz birakmayan yagmur. Ikinize de cok tesekkurler, el birligiyle hayatimdan biktirdiniz beni. Sabahtan beri yerimden kalkmadan calisiyorum. Buyuk bir oflamayla ara verdim yaptiklarima ve basladim internette gezinmeye. Tesaduf eseri asagidaki su dizelerle karsilastim. Icimden gecirdigim yakinmalara tokat gibi cevap verdi Sems. Hakli da..

"Bir şey yap, güzel olsun... Çok mu zor?
O vakit güzel bir şey söyle... Dilin mi dönmüyor?
Güzel bir şey gör veya güzel bir şey yaz... Beceremez misin?
Öyleyse güzel bir şeye başla... Ama hep güzel şeyler olsun.
Çünkü her insan ölecek yaşta... Geç kalmayasın!"
Şems-i Tebrizi

Simdi ise geri donuyorum, guzel bir seye basla kismini yanlis algilamis olabilirim ama su an yeni bir rapora basliyorum. Umarim guzel olur :)

Burcu

Please keep an eye on me.. or four..

Cok sukur molekuler olarak en iyisi biziz! Hmmm evet..

Ben Turkiye' den ayrildiktan sonra cok populer oldugunu dusundugum yeni bir kalip var ya da yeni degil de benim cevremde kimse kullanmiyordu o zamanlar ben bilmiyordum. "Bu kafa neyin kafasi!".

Ben bu kalibi ne zaman duysam bir irkiliyorum, bir rahatsiz oluyorum. Bunyem bir turlu kabul edemedi bu kalibi taaaa ki su haberi gorene kadar. 

Dedim ki, ayip etmisim a dostlar meger ki gercekten bu kalibin "cuk oturdugu' durumlar da olabiliyormus.

Molekuler Olarak Kanitlandi!

Bu kafa neyin kafasi sayin bilim(!)adamlari? Kendiyle celisen bir durum bu oncelikle. Din dedigin dogmatik bir inanistir. Inanirsin ya da inanmazsin. Var ya da yok oldugunu ispatlamak sacmadir. Acaba bu inanistan yeterince tatmin mi olamadilar ki molekuler olarak arastirmaya basladilar. 

Bir de dusunelim bakalim yontem neymis.. Simdi suda altigenler oldu e bizim vucudumuz da su oldugundan iste molekuler olarak bizim din super sizinkisi nanik. 

Hmm evet, cok guzel..

Echo & The Bunnymen - The Killing Moon [Music Video]

What keeps you awake at night?

Does it also happen to you that you feel so tired but you cannot manage to sleep. It does to me quite often lately. There are so many non related questions flying on my mind and I have decided to write them downhere and throw them out of my system. At least park them here for tonight :)

There you go... (disclaimer: do not expect any big or interesting ideas :))

 My hair: shall I change the colour or shall I keep it. I am at my parents' house and and ve seen the old photos. My dark hair looks good too. Hmmm, hmmmm

 My foot: When will it fully stop hurting. Will I be able to wear high heels at my cousins wedding in June? Does this new powder colour nail polish look any good? (seriously, WTH?)

 Work: I will be working tomorrow and on Tuesday. Why? Why? Why?

 The Flight: Shall I go to Munich city centre or stay in the airport during the 5 hour gap between my two flights on Friday?

 The T-shirt: I bought this t-shirt the other day in 2 min without trying it on and now I need to change it. Do not forget to change, do not forget to change! I like the happy giraffe on it though! :)

 The food: How come the food mum cooks can taste so great? Does mum feed me slightly more than I need lately? Am I getting bigger?? Nooooooooooooooo!

 My blog: Is it getting boring or is it only me? How am I going to upload all those photos that I have taken the other day? Or shall I? What would be the title? Shall I change the background colour of it, or just keep it as it is because it goes with my nail polish? (hehehe kidding, really!)

 Old Friends: When have we become so different people and had so different goals in our lives? Although how can we still feel the same for each other and have fun together just like in the old days?

 The Family: Is my family getting cooler or am I just getting mature enough to actually see it better? (No bro, I am not buttering you up, it is for real :))


Pheew, feeling better now, I feel like I emptied my head and feel even sleepy now. (Me with an empty head, not a big shocker eh? :))

Good night for now!

 Xx

Coldplay - Paradise

...and so lying underneath those stormy skies
she'd say, "oh, ohohohoh I know the sun must set to rise"
this could be paradise...

The cycle of my day

I've found this picture on a web site by accident and wanted to share it here because this is exactly how I spend my time at home these days. When I say home, I mean my parents' home where I am getting spoiled nowadays :)

Picture me like this boy but I am also constantly getting fed by my mom. I guess, there is nothing wrong to be a child once in a while. Actually I might even start reading my favourite books from my childhood.

Okay, maybe not :)

x

Paradoks

Sen, sensiz gel..??

Holiday, this is just the beginning..

I left home before 5am to catch my flight at 8:25am from the City Airport.
(Notes to Future Self: leave at 6am not 5!!)

I like this airport, it is small or shall i call it compact instead. And there is free internet which is even easier to connect than Starbucks' one. It is still not as convenient as Heathrow is for me but still this one is also quite easy to reach. Well, when i say convinient I mean a 1hour journey and 2tube lines + DLR. Still not bad at all. The only problem I had on the way to the airport, me trying very hard not to fall asleep and miss the station. For this see the notes for the future self above...

I used my Oyster card all the way here but just remembered that I have never checked out and found myself in the airport. Hmmm, that is actually a very good question that I need to find the answer now, otherwise I can only check out in Zurich, Ugh!!

And now, Burcu is dissapperaing in the dark. And all you can hear is her sleepy and tired voice "Excuse me Sir, where can I check out my Oyster card?"

Hehe he hehe

X

Quick Update on the Foot

This morning I went to my second post-op appointment and my doctor said my foot almost fully healed. He said I could get rid of the surgical shoe now which actually I did a week ago :)

He said am much better comparing to his other patients who also had the operation at the same week with me. Ha ha! Suck it, you other patients I win!!! Uhhmm I mean I hope we all will be happy and super healthy altogether. :-P :-)

To be honest, I actually still have a lump on the side of my foot but the doctor said it is only swelling. And it will apparently take quite some time to get rid of the whole swelling but I am still happy with the result. At least now I can walk in the normal shoes, slower but stronger :)

x

Drawing Class after months

I went to the drawing class last night after a looong time and I was absolutely rubbish. I can only upload one of the pictures that I drew last night. Don't know why but I didn't feel like drawing at all and was more into looking around and checking other people's drawings. I will now look at my other pictures which are not very promising and feel ashamed to give myself a lesson then next time hopefully I will be more into it.

Until next time!

Burcu the lazy bum..

Drawing from the mirror

Finally I drew myself from the mirror for the first time. Despite what I thought, it was not too scary and took only 20 minutes. I think for the first try, it did't come out too bad in the end, although that chin is not mine. :)

x

Self Portrait #2

More drawing from my own photograph.

I ruined it with my hand a bit while i was doing the last adjustments on the eyes. Although I can still see the improvements comparing to my old drawings.

Until next time,

B.

Sunday Sketching

I drew this from a very blurry photo in half an hour. It is not great obviously but not too bad either.

I am a party animal!

Confession: I used that title to get your attention but unfortunately that is a lie at least for tonight.

The truth: It is a Friday night and I am already in my bed and looking at this screen with only one of my eyes. (perhaps, the other one fell asleep long ago because even if I tried hard, could't manage to open it)

When I was young which means last year, I was looking forward to Fridays to go out. Don't know what exactly happened this year but either on Friday or Saturday I started staying in and watching silly youtube videos while scratching my belly (which is a quite flat and tanned belly, dont think otherwise please! :P) So what was I saying.. I guess, I am getting old. :(

I called my father today and told him that I was so sad because of getting old. Bless him, he knows me well so he asked me what was happened calmly. I said "Dad, do you reckon those days I was begging you to stay out for another hour on the phone?". He said he still remembers those unfortunate days :)). I tried to ignore that criticism and continued to prove my theory of me getting old. I said, "Dad, can you believe that now you don't give a darn if I am out partying all night long or not but now I am too tired to go out". He laughed (I think he was extremely happy, well that is a good thing I guess :) ) and claimed that "I am not too tired to go out but I am tired of going out". He said, for me staying in is kind of a cool thing to do because it is different than what I usually do. Well what can I say, this man knows me so it must be true! :)

Well, actually he is right because I have a good excuse for today's laziness, I have just remembered.

Confession #2: I was out last night, went to the bed past 1am and woke up at past 6am and was on the tube at 7:30, went to my meetings in the city while jumping on my one foot.

Finally,

Conclusion: I am not old! (Hah!)

Yes, good call, good job!

Good night! :)
x

Gotye - Easy Way Out

...brain-dead from boredom
i'm led to distraction
scratching the surface of life
nothing really happens
but it's easy too keep busy
when you tell yourself you're travelling right...

Sunday Handcraft

We -as a bunch of late 20s, early 30s year old people - got together this Sunday and painted Easter eggs.  Okay, we might not be the coolest people ever but it was fun. The funniest part was, we were drinking quite a lot and listening to 80s Rock Music on the radio.

You may see some nice and appropriate eggs in the picture below but the real outcome of the day was more different as, two sheep back to back and the one at the back was a naughty naughty sheep! A Hawaiian dancer looks like anything but a Hawaiian dancer, a Swiss flag (dont have any clue why), a Christmas ornament (that was me, i am still confused with all these new holidays I guess :) )

Oh btw, in the picture that half green painted egg was mine too. Probably I was already bored :) Hehe.

Until next time!
x

Let's insult each other and enjoy it!

I had a first big night out last night since the surgery and I admit it it was not the smartest thing I have ever done. I met an old co-worker in the office on Friday who came to London for couple of days. He said he was going for a dinner with some friends and asked me to join them. So far everything was just fine by the time I heard the name of the restaurant. I am not giving the name here since most of you would recognise it but it is a very well known restaurant bar with a nice roof terrace in the West End. The problem about this place, everybody loves it but I don't.

I guess I have been here like 5 or 6 times and each time I go I just get so annoyed by the super arrogant waiters and the restaurant manager(s). They have some rules are much stricter than the constitution. They treat you terribly as you were already so blessed of being able to be in that cocky restaurant and you just get the worst treatment and finally you spend the whole money you have got in your wallet, usually even more...

As if this was not enough, one of us in the group was also not the most friendly person so she was treating the waiters terribly as well. I don't know what was the worst last night really, the idiotic arrogance by the restaurant people or our "friend"s rude attitude. The funny thing is nobody seemed really annoyed apart from me so everyone was perfectly okay with what was happening. The both sides kept insulting each other all night long and it was just fine! Unbelievable!

After this place, we went to a club in South Kensington. Okay, this was my fault. I shouldn't have gone after the previous experience. But it was already too late for the tube and I told myself how worse could it get? Oh apparently, it could get pretty worse :))

We came to this club and at the entrance these FBI agent looking people asked us how many we were. We said 3 and the agent said we needed to get a table for 300 quid!!!! I loved (!) the attitude like " you little people you better have money to enter".  Haha. And this amount didn't even include the drinks. I started laughing and declared to my insane friends that I was not going to pay that sh*t which was exactly at the same time when they declared to me that that amount was perfectly fine for them. What the ...? Am I really living on a different planet? I said oh well, goodbye then and after a couple of minutes I found myself inside of the club. Well here I was standing in the dark and thinking what else I could do with 300 quid. I could buy 2 flight tickets to Istanbul. I could go somewhere really nice on Easter Break or I could simply keep it in my pocket. Darn!
They ordered a bottle of champagne and the place closed like after an hour :) Sweet! So the bill arrived which was 420 quid and I was going to have a heart attack. We didn't even dance. People were just checking out each other. And our posh friend said that the bill was okay and she paid it. Of course we wanted to contribute but she said it was not a big amount to bother herself to divide.. Wow! Respect!

I mean it wouldn't really kill me to pay that money either but the thing that I don't understand is, why would I want to pay that amount for something really not special. I mean I could't see any difference between this club or any other club that we could have gone with a 20 quid entrance fee. Oh no there is one difference which is you actually get treated more badly in these places. Some people are just insane or I am just being boring. Both has a good chance to be true. Oh well..

1st Anniversary

It has been a whole year in this flat and a whole year and a day in the UK. Wow, time indeed flies!

Let me dive into my head and grab some words about the last year.

New

Cry

Happiness

Love

Hate

Shoes (what the heck?)

Work

New

Full English Breakfast (okay this is not one word, but still)

Laugh

Drawing

Work

Difficult

Surgery

Missing

Noise

Red

Adele (obviously!)

Crutches

Driving

Challenge

Family

Medication

Pilates

Bro

Friends

Shitty Flats (2 words)

Expensive

Concerts (love it, need to go more often)

Comedy Clubs (2 words and I love it)

Fancy

Cars

Starbucks (we had only 1 Starbucks in Amsterdam then)

Limping

Clubbing (not much though)

Pubs

Warm beer (2 words, avoid the word "warm")

Chiswick (love it)

Humour (different kind but still)

etc...

All in all, the most important word is "Experience". I like that even if it was not always easy.

Well, congrats to me! I hope things will be even more fun from now on since I am officially 1 year long experienced ;-)

x

This and that and quick update.

Not much is going on these days but giving a quick update is always good.

 * The Foot:
It is getting better and better everyday, I kind of started giving my weight on it recently. And the hammer toe joint is getting more and more flexible now. All is good and still recovering well here.

 * The Work:
It is so busy these days, I give a training every day to a different partner plus so much other daily work pushes me har but I like it. At least I am still enjoying to be back and being able to function again.

 * The Drawing:
I have missed so many classes since I didn't dare to go all the way to Camden for the last couple of weeks but this week I am planning to go. Fingers crossed!! Apart from the class I still draw at home and the only thing I am missing is a nude model like we usually have at the class. (No this is not an invitation! hehehehe :-) )

 * This and that and etc.:
A good friend of mine has just moved to my neighbourhood and it feels great to have a friend just minutes away on foot. I like that. :-)

People who know me already would know it well that I am such a coward when it comes to the horror movies. Don't get me wrong, I won't tell you I have started watching horror movies, nope!
But I like crime TV shows as, CSI, Cold Case, Without a Trace, Behzat C (:-))
Yesterday night I watched 4 Cold Case episodes and then had to take a shower later. That shower was much shorter than I planned and at least one of my eyes was open to check around till it get burnt by shampoo. Oh and of course I also had my ipad playing music in the bathroom. Luckily it is still working despite all that steam. And after I survived my thrilling shower adventure of course I continued watching Cold Case. Eventually I don't remember how many times I was killed in my dream last night. Why can't simply see myself as the detective instead of being a victim in my dreams. Blah! When the alarm clock woke me up this morning, for the first time I was so happy that I didn't have to go back to sleep :) That didn't feel good but it was also a sick kind of fun :)

I hate when it is windy these days. There is this shop below my flat and they had their big chunky sign hanging right next to my bedroom window. No need to say it is all rotten and it swings and swings and swings and swings all night long! Especially when you have nightmares caused by Cold Case, this rotten swinging is not helping at all. I am not afraid of the noise, no it s not that. The thing is when I am already asleep it just provides a nice horror movie background voice and when the wind gets stronger, it wakes me up.

Rain, snow, heat wave!! You guys are nothing but the wind! The wind, I don't like you! or I simply don't like that stupid rotten sign! :)

Welcoming the Spring :)

I was born as an outgoing person. Since the time I learnt how to walk, I have been just finding excuses to go out :) That is why winter has never been my favourite season.

When I was a child I was always playing outside all the time but of course during the winter, my mama did't let me go out. If she did, I am so sure I would still go out and play till I die but smart of her, she was not letting me do that. :)

So winter was sad, winter meant a whole count down for the good days. That is why I guess, (dont even remember how old I was) I decided to celebrate the 1st of March every year which is the first day of the Spring. Every year I was lighting a candle and singing a song like "hosgeldin bahar, yasasin bahar, hos geldin bahaaaaar, lalalalalalala" so basically something like "Spring, welcome to you! Long live Spring, Welcome to you! lalallala". Okay not the best song ever but still tradition is tradition! Please show some respect here :)

Now, you might expect me to say something like "hahaha such a silly child I was" well.. Wrong! The truth is I am still silly so I celebrated the 1st day of the Spring today. I lit a candle and I sang my song and welcomed the Spring.

I love you Spring and I know you have got feelings for me too ;-)

Welcome to you!

Xxx

1st Day's Summary: Absolutely Knackered

I am back at work today and it was not the easiest start at all.

I started the day with two bad news, actually the worst news about two colleagues in Turkey. That was the biggest punch in the face... Nothing more to say about this, really... Just so sad.. 

And later, just getting back to my same old routine. I had a meeting at St Paul's and if I am being honest, with the crutches it was not the most pleasant journey. I had to change 3 different tube lines and now I understand how important to have disabled friendly tube stations and I also understand how we usually take the things such as walking or going up and down at the stairs as granted, when we are healthy. At St Paul's, there was a construction at the escalator and that caused me a slightly swollen right foot which I have been keeping elevated since I came home. But I am not complaining because it is still good to be able to function as before even if I am still quite slower.

There is another face of wearing surgical shoe which is slightly fun and highly silly. :) I was trying on my work clothes this morning and nothing looked okay with the huge black surgical shoe on my right foot. So I have decided to distract people by wearing a quite short dress which I believe perfectly worked. Hahaha. I told you that it was silly, or is it? :-P

I am soooo tired now and really wanted to go to the bed early but my dear(!) upstairs neighbour decided to drill some walls at 11 pm tonight and also hoover all the sh*t later. The only(!) thing I don't understand is, what can you drill for more than 30 mins if you don't aim to make a colander out of your wall!!?? Hey neighbour, if you read this blog... Just FYI, I don't like you! 

I will give it another try to sleep now with the earplugs on.

Until next time!

x

And, here we go!

I went to the clinic today and they took the bandages off. I ve seen my foot for the first time after the operation and here you may see some pictures when the lovely nurse Andrea was working on it.

Last time with the bandages on..

And there she goes..

Cisco phone is in the background :P

And just little adjustments to go..

Still very swollen on and around the big toe. Although, it looks quiet okay from the front. 

But you can see on the side that there is still a looong way to go to fully recover.

My doctor asked me to see him in 4 weeks, and till that time I should still wear the special shoe because the bones are not fully healed yet. 

It feels weird to think that some bones are still broken in my foot! Ugh!!! Gross! :))

Until next time!

Burcu

GJ 1214b, another one!!

Dear Extrasolar Planet GJ 1214b,

You put a childish smile on my face and you are making my day. First Kepler 22b and now you! Kepler seems more of a place that we could survive on though, but it is way too far (almost 600LY).

You have water, FYI we LOVE water. and you are only only(!) 42LY away. Well, nothing like Venus or Mars are close (keep this between two of us but they are not very useful apart from that book about Women from Venus whatever..) but still, you guys make me so happy.

You might have some kind of habitants on you (our scientists say that it is massively hot for the habitants but maybe your habitants survive at the high temperature!) and I want to talk to them, if you dont mind. I will use English this time, because the last time I talked to Kepler's habitants in Turkish here and unfortunately still haven't heard anything back. (click and see) And if you consider all Hollywood movies, you guys tend to speak English..

Hi GJ 1214b habitants,
First of all, i come in peace so please do not attack. Your planet looks like an orange and you know what, I love orange. You are like a big dreamy fruit and it is almost made with water. And guess what we love water too. I think you may look like a fish or an octopus or an alien or a nice mixed of all. Anyhow, I would like to meet. I am a great host and can boil a hot water and put it on an orange (as in colour) mug to make you feel home. Contact me here!
x (as in kiss)
Burcu

So back to you dear extra solar planet.. I will put a picture of you below. Then everybody can see what you look like! And also the link for whom want to know you better.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/GJ1214b

I am giggling like a child now :)
Big kisses (as in XX)
Burcu

Just checking

It's been almost a year and I was just checking if I like it now. Nope, I don't!

Still 3 weeks to go to finish the whole year, though. You never know..

...Oh heaven, oh heaven
I wait with good intentions
But the day it always lasts too long
Then I'm gone...

This and that and boredom

I know earlier I said "until something exciting happens" but unfortunately it seems like nothing exciting will happen any time soon. So here is the deal, I am back here with my full boredom. Feel free to escape now :)

I still lay down on my back but the more boring thing is, even if I am on a sick leave, I am still working. I had a phone-meeting today, will give a web-training tomorrow and have a web-meeting on Wednesday. Nice, isn't it?

You might say that it is a good thing to keep myself busy with work since I cannot move anyways. But trust me, it isn't! It isn't because the medication I take, makes me sleepy and I can't focus on work right now! There is a good reason people call it 'sick leave', right? Blah!..

There is slightly better news on my foot. Despite what I thought about the post operation symptoms, the biggest issue I have now is the cramps at the back of my leg. I asked my Pilates teacher if I could do anything to stretch those muscles to relax a bit for a change and here is the solution.

While you sit on the floor, you put your legs on the Pilates roller as you make a cross with your legs and the roller. And you raise your body on your palms to give your weight on your legs and roll the roller slowly up and down to help the muscles to relax. If you suffer especially on one leg more than the other like I do, you may put your good leg on the injured one to press it harder. That works quite well on me and now I can bend my leg much more easily. Below, you can see a similar Pilates roller to mine.

I am looking forward to Thursday when the doctor will take the bandages off my foot and finally I will see my foot for the first time after the operation. Quiet scary and also exciting :)

As you can understand from the name of the post, there is not one topic so I also want to talk about my trashy magazines which keep me entertained during this staying home period. It is not that I will talk bad about them actually it is quite the opposite. I remember couple years back in Istanbul, I happened to buy these kind of magazines too, during a holiday or a long trip etc. There is a major difference between these two experiences. Here it comes..

The ones that I had read years ago were pushing the readers to lose weight, to spend more and giving an impression as you should defo do anything that they say to be accepted in the society. The new ones try to make the readers feel comfortable in their own body and suggest relatively cheaper options for the gals who want to look like the celebrities. That is a plus I guess. Good call Burcu! Well done!

Oh mine, are you still reading? Even I am bored of myself and now cutting this off! :)))

Until anything( hopefully something exciting) happens! :)
Burcu

Boredom inspires me..

A quick charcoal sketch of my brother..

Update on my foot

Today it is the 6th day after my operation and I am feeling pretty okay. I still use my crutches and wear my post surgery shoe (will keep wearing it for another 5 more weeks booo), but the pain doesn't trouble me so much anymore. So far so good..

You can see the last condition of my foot below. A bit blurry and looks a bit unreal and colourless but that is normal, doctor said. That is normal for a charcoal sketch :P

Until something exciting happens! :)

And here is the pain..

I talked too soon when i said it was not hurting yesterday. Pain woke me up this morning. I took a paracetamol and also a strong pain killer, well actually two of each. Now I am feeling a bit better and so sleepy. I don't feel like writing now. ufff
Until next time..

Safe and Sound

Hi all,

I had the operation yesterday and spent the night at the hospital. Despite all my fears, it was a very smooth operation and wake up from the anestetic. I liked my hospital room a lot. The bed was so comfy. If they asked me to stay another night, I wouldn't mind I guess :) you can easily see it from my face below hehe :))

Now I am home, and my super brother, whom I feel so lucky to have around, is treating me like a princess. Now my little foot is resting at home and watching telly :)

Despite the blogs I had read before or things that I had heard, my foot is not giving me a hard time yet. It is only tingling a bit but not unbearable yet. I hope it continues in this way. It actually gives me the courage for the other operation in couple of months on the left foot. But it is too soon to think about that! Focus on the l'il right one now :)

Later, for now..

Tomorrow is the day.

I went to this appointment today and finally agreed having the surgery tomorrow in the private clinic.
Finally, tomorrow evening it is. I will have a super cool Friday night plan which is to take hard core pain killers and spend the night at the hospital.

I have had another surgery years ago and I remember that I was not scared. But now, if I am being honest, I am not any brave at all. I guess the reason is I did't have the best experience last time while I was trying to wake up from general anesthesia. Anyway, I shouldn't scare myself. Heads up!!!!

Yeah, what was I saying? The surgery is tomorrow evening and I will work tomorrow! Haha :) I even have a meeting in the morning, thankfully not face to face and I don't need to show my white, scared face to anyone :)

I hope things will go smoothly and I can get back to my normal life as soon as possible.

Until next time..

Tick tock tick tock, it is getting late..

I ve been in my bed for about 2 hours now and still got spinning eyes and non-stop processing brain.

As you know, my operation was postponed and now and I am back to work since Monday. Funny it is that I am so busy this week. I was supposed to be away if the operation happened as planned, for god's sake, how come am I this much busy then??

I have got another doctor appointment tomorrow in a private clinic. This doctor is a friend/colleague of one of my friends who himself is also an orthopedist too. My friend suggested me to see Dr Jones tomorrow and we will decide if I will be still having the surgery within NHS on Monday or with this new doctor in the private clinic, hopefully on Friday. I am so confused now!! I wish I had it on the 6th and already got rid of it.

On top of everything, because of the cancellation now, I will have series of meetings just about 2 weeks after the surgery and guess what?? One of them is in Newbury! I have got no clue how to get Newbury while I won't be able to drive. I guess, I will wake up at 5am and jump on my bloody crutches to take the tube to Victoria and then take the train and then take a cab.. Damn!! I need a driver!

My bro will be leaving on the 19th and thanks to the cancellation again, he will be only staying with me 1 week after the surgery. I will be off for about 2 weeks and the second week I will be alone. Sweet life, isn't it?..

That is funny because I was thinking the reason of not being able to sleep 5 minutes ago and since now I am writing all these, I know that. I cannot sleep because I am just over thinking again. At least this time I ve got fair reasons.

I have to wake up early tomorrow morning. I have got early meetings again. Tick tock tick tock I am so annoyed!

Burcu

So called surgery day.

Some of you have already known that I was supposed to have an operation tomorrow. It was due at 7:30 on Monday. The dearest NHS, sent me a letter on late Friday and canceled it without giving any reasons or explanations and rescheduled it on the 13th. I received this letter on Saturday and there was a number to call in case I have got any complaints. When I tried to call the number to ask the reason, I figured out that they wouldn't answer any calls till 9am on Monday.
Super cool, eh?
My brother came all the way from Istanbul to help me out during and after the operation and now the date is postponed without giving any explanation.
My meetings are all messed up since now the recovery period will be pushed a week ahead too. I am so furious, and unfortunately only thing I can do right now is to hope that it won't happen again!
I used to appreciate NHS but now, WTF!!

Lan, n'oldu be?

Icimden gecirdigim sozleri yazayim buraya, eksik kalmasin. Sarkinin kendisi de asagida.


..derken bir sabah erken
sevdiğimiz, yanımızda yumuşacık uyurken
lan, n'oldu derken
bir sabah erken
birbirimizi böyle manyak gibi severken
lan, n'oldu be?
lan, ne bu be?..

Morning Glory... Not!

Don't you ever feel the same as you wake up and you go to the bathroom and all you want is just to go back to the bed. Yeah, yeah you know that feeling.. Today is one of those days. I have got sh*t loads of things to do but all I want to do is to sleep.

I am already in front of my laptop which clearly shows that I just couldn't do what I was dreaming of. But here you listen to my song of today.

"It is not that I am lazy.. I think I am just crazy.. I don't wanna work today.. Ohoo.. La lalalaaa"

I am already working though, damn!

Some More Drawings

I went to this drawing class on Wednesday again and despite the last time the the instructor told me that i am actually not too bad anymore. That sounded quite positive to me. :) You can see my two drawings from the last class. I didn't work on my shadowing at all since I drew them in 20 something minutes.

The great thing is, I am still enjoying it a lot! Let's see how I am going to get on in the following weeks..

Hayat Matematik

Cocukken zaman zaman sorardim, napacagim ben bunca denklemi okul bittiginde diye.. Babam derdi ki, hayat matematik aslinda Burcu, nereye baksan onunde cozulmeyi bekleyen bir problem, denklestirilmeyi bekleyen bir denklem goreceksin. Taa ki gercekten bakmayi ogrendiginde.

Onceleri hayatimizdaki matematik o kadar korkutucu degildi. Bakkala gittim, sakiz aldim, ben para verdim, o bana sakiz ve para ustu verdi. Denklem esitlendi

Cok Para = Sakiz + Az para

Fizikten iyi not aldim, biyoloji biraz kotu gecti. Ama yil sonu ortalamam o kadar da dusmez cunku matematikten bekledigimden daha iyi not aldim.

Iyi Fizik Notu + Kotu Biyoloji Notu + Super Matematik Notu = Beklenilen Yil Sonu Ortalamasi

Her sey matematige biraz daha benzerken kolaydi fakat asil zorluk, matematik denklemlerinin fazla bilinmeyenli denklemleriydi ki bu gunlerde karsimda cok goruyorum. Ve bu bilinmeyenlerin, para, sakiz, not gibi somut olgular degil de, duygular, hisler, beklentiler gibi soyut varliklara kaymasiyla da hayat cok karisik denklemlere donusmus oldu.

Benim yontemim, hayati matematik gibi algilamaya devam etmek. O zaman aslinda hosa pek gitmeyecek konular, eglenceli denklemler gibi algilanabiliyor. Her sey bir dengeye ulasmaya calisiyor. Arada, ihtimaller goz onunde bulundurularak, denklemi riske atmamak adina, yedekler tutuluyor. Baktin risk ortadan kalkiyor, yedege minik bir baybay deniliyor. Hooop, denklem esitleniyor.

Para sakiz denklemi gibi, herkesin es degerde memnun oldugu denklemler cok eskilerde kaldi belki ama yine de zor da olsa umarim hepimiz dengede denklemler kurabiliriz.

Iyi geceler,

Burcu

The Artist

Hey Everyone,

I have seen this movie called "The Artist" tonight. The only thing I can say that, this movie was absolutely brilliant. Very deep, very clever..

The story has started in 1927 and was about the transition in cinema from silent movie to talking pictures. The silent movie star George Valentin struggles in this transition and the movie was mostly about the transition in his life. That was a very interesting movie since the movie's itself was very cleverly made in silence too. 

The leading actress, Berenico Bejo, was absolutely gorgeous. But I want to talk about the leading actor, Jean Dujardin. He was very professional and a great actor. On top of everything he had the sexiest smile ever  :)

I need to mention the little smart cookie dog that he had because that is my favorite breed of dog, Jack Russell (click to see). I will get a similar dog anytime soon! Ok, let me not change the topic :)

This is a 'must see' movie and I believe it will collect all the awards this year.

Here, you may see some scenes from the movie and the trailer.

Lata!

My New Hobby - Drawing

I have started taking drawing classes. Well, so far I have attended only one class and only 'constructive' feedback I got from the teacher was, my drawings were showing the model as a beast. Luckily I am hardly discouraged by these things and I accepted the challenge. Practising makes it better, said a very wise man. :) And I listened to him. Here you can see my auto portrait below.
If you still think that looks like a beast, how dare you! :)
See you later!